japayuki slut

ok, the friend that i was reffering to in the previous post, i have finally decided to call the a japayuki slut. why call her that? coz she is one, or rather she was one. yup, she, a filipina went to japan a few years back to make easy money. so, japayuki is the only thing that adds up to mind. wait-- she still is one coz her boyfriend is japanese, and she addicted to sex. so once again, it adds up again.

this is in no relation to what happened last night, it's a much bigger problem. i called her coz i needed something from her. she thinks that it was all a joke. it really wasn't a joke. well, to make the long story short. been sensitive this past few days. my mom nearly died twice this weekend, and whatever else more came up. god, she thought i was joking. i shouted at the bitch, and she was like i'm not like others and i'm not your yaya, don't shout at me. who the fuck does she think she is???!!! she's lower than me that's for sure, japayuki slut. how dare she! that's the problem here in the philippines, people who are low class are too full of themselves and dare stammer are people who are way better off than them. what the fuck's that? where is the r-e-s-p-e-c-t when it should be there? i don't give a rats ass if she's a few years older than me. i shouted at her coz i was panicking with a bigger problem. i tend to be like that, shouting and even throwing left and right when i'm pissed off. then she shouted back at me. bitch!!! before, she'd always say to calm down. now she's the fucking complete opposite. she knows i'm like that. some friend! guess what??? we probably aren't friends anymore.

she kinda reminds me of my ex best friend. she is japanese though-- half filipina-japanese. japayuki slut was a try hard jap. other than that, they're the same. leaving me over something so small. i thought that they both knew me. i found out how shallow they were. wait... even my boyfriend doesn't know who i am. i don't get it, i'm so black and white, and transparent, it's so easy to get me. i'm not plastic nor shallow. i'm true to myself. does anyone get me? no one does, except my mother. i love her so...

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prayers for my wawa

i love you
please don't leave me
for sure,
i'll be all alone